OBJECT TALES #2 : A LEFT-BEHIND JOY

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Picture this: big plane, seat belt on, excited in mid-air. Handed to me, possibly in a plastic bag, is something for a small kid. Soft and yellow, a toy ready to land to its new home.

I don’t initially remember really playing with this 4-pawed, stuffed toy which I sometimes presumed to be a dog while the rest of the time, it was a cow.

Be it a dog/cow, it was the brightest yellow ever.
Also, 6 orange spots and 2 purple ears, complimentary to the already bright self that it was.

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I think I kept it neatly (maybe, not) arranged on some shelf or above a table. It was special because it was mine like all the other magically created, little pieces of constant joy that every toy to every kid is.

{Time Skip}
Then I was in a plane again. Not immediately after, I guess an year an a half later.

I was allowed to only take 1 magically created, little piece of constant joy from a collection of otherwise many. We were flying to Germany and looking after any more of those precious things was risky. I was obliged to listen to this advice even if not exactly on will.

So I chose it; my vivid cow, or like you know. A dog.

It was nice to have it cuddled tight when I slept. More so, the-chosen-one was a piece of something from home. It wasn’t foreign like the land I was on.

The family had further plans so a road trip was inevitable.

Picture this: Car packed tight, driving in a Hulk-sized, 9 seater car. Destination: United Kingdom. Yet I, squished in the last row, well I sit confused. Struck by the uncertainty of whether this car actually has my toy in it, or not? Lost with any way to clear this sudden doubt, naivety ensures I come back to Germany still equally prey to confusion.

{Time skip}
Plane ride to Germany it is once again. I don’t anymore get plastic wrapped pieces of constant joy on-board planes.
No matter: I’ve been told where mine ended up.

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Picture this: Walking up the stairs, cautious not to act suspicious, I maneuver to where it must be; obviously a room too pink with princess paintings stuck on the walls. It doesn’t take me too long to find it. My cousin’s daughter doesn’t notice me pick it up from her pile of toys and walk downstairs.

It had been about 3 years since I had clumsily forgotten my toy back in Germany. My first cousin once removed was the natural kid, to be given this abandoned thing, with all the rights to presume it to be her own.

Was it stubborn to still want to take it back? Yes, probably.
But did that stop me from trying? You bet, it didn’t.

Call me childish, I hated not getting it back. Despite finding it and succeeding in the kid not noticing, I wasn’t allowed to take it back. I wasn’t allowed to call it my own now, not after 3 years of it being someone else’s. I wasn’t only sad because I didn’t get it back, I was sad because that day, I felt defeated.

Defeat is worst when you think you’ve won.

{Time Skip}
Germany trips were so frequent now. I’d go far as to call it a part of routine. This place wasn’t as foreign as it once was. I knew the people, the surroundings, a bit of the language; even the still too-pink room.

Picture this: The same cousin’s house, around a table crowded with relatives and dishes topped with food; everyone eager to eat. Out of nowhere, I remember it.

Yet this time it’s different.

This time, I don’t quietly climb up the stairs or avoid my cousin’s kid from noticing. Nor is there the restless feeling of rush to grab it and take it back to my ownership, as soon as possible.

This time, I mention my toy aloud like a guest seeking a ticket to visit. I do get one. Hence, I climb up the same stairs again. Not towards the painstakingly pink room but to the room in the opposite direction. On top my cousin’s kid’s bed in her parents’ room, I find it among some other of, truly and originally, her toys. Still doesn’t take me long to find it. I hear she too has it cuddled tight when she sleeps.

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It has been 6 years since my vivid toy didn’t find a return flight. 6 years since the meaning of its home was due for re-calibration.

Yet it still truly was just as yellow.

I pick it up and that was when I understood the meaning of change, change that isn’t apparent: I didn’t mind it being here anymore.

And in that precise moment, the little thing gave me my victory.

Not in coming under my ownership.
But in its gleaming black eyes; for looking at them showed me how much it had grown.

Obviously not the object itself.

 

But the person I found reflected back at me.

 

-Toto

P.S. Okay phew! That took quite a long time to finish, I’ve been working on it for well over a month to find just the right bit of satisfaction. Because personally, Object Tales is about experimenting new ways to tell new stories of every thing that makes an appearance. So quality over time in particular for this series. Apologies for making you people wait too long between posts. That magical idea-providing, light bulb that goes “TING” wasn’t going “TING”. 😀

Foray into the New

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So that’s a video I filmed for the first chapter in my new series: “OBJECT TALES” (http://wp.me/p4Lefj-1g). Seeing the end product made me totally go “Whaa?!”

No, not for how stupid or lame it ended up (was fortunately watchable!) but just the stark realization that I had actually gotten up, filmed a moving car numerous times, edited the less-than-20-seconds footage that took ages to film properly then hunted the right music and finally after almost a day later achieved in making something that, though is pretty ordinary and probably something easily forgettable, I’m extremely proud of.

It’s quite intimidating to try new things and this blog itself is a prime example of it.

This blog was my first head on collision with intimidation challenging my passion.

But one thing I’ve just noticed is that diving headfirst into new things is somewhat of a chain reaction. In the way that if you start and bravely achieve one thing that previously seemed impossible, instantly you’ll move a level higher and before you know it you’ll be diving headfirst into another intimidating thing, with this increasing momentum, awaiting achievement. The longer you try to climb higher, level by level, the more faster the momentum.

A good chunk of the reason for being able to continue doing new things is the courage you find yourself filled up with after that very first achievement.

Just the initial, first jump to a higher level makes you an adventurer, maybe even a reckless adventurer who’s merely thirsty for intimidating things.

But that’s what Courage is all about; keeping the thirst alive.

-Toto

OBJECT TALES #1 : A Wingless Flyer

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I once had car, painted yellow, that distinct cab-yellow. It was a SUV, about the size of an average human palm with tiny little details of doors, windows and lights marked on. It even had perfectly shaped side mirrors. I could steer it with my hand and like every other trusty toy car owned by a kid, the wheels drove it into a smooth drive. The car was perfect, well almost perfect.

You see, it had one shortcoming: It couldn’t fly and I was going to change that.  

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Determined to make it fly, I had a duty to my yellow car that needed urgent achievement, no matter the cost. I got together the materials for its flight: a balloon, thread and something to stick it all together, glue or duct tape.  For such massive change in the lifestyle of a car, care had to be taken and so newspapers were called in for help. Spread on the carpet floor of my messy bedroom was a horde of newspapers, important for hygienic purposes in this serious operation.  I was probably 7 or 8 years old yet a 100 percent certain that my little car would reach for the sky.

I cannot remember how long I spent on that newspaper-mat, meddling with my scarce materials. Inflating the only balloon I had, attaching it to the roof of the SUV with sewing thread and duct tape. I remember holding the car in between my enclosed hands like a weak bird in its nest, too scared to fly. I remember the time I let go, encouraging it to discover its own wings and soar high like it didn’t need anyone to tell it what to do! I remember expecting it to rise in front of my very eyes.

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But then again I also remember the weight, the fall and the eventual “THUD!” like a bird too tired to fly. I thought I had it all planned out. I knew it was simple but I didn’t know it was impossible.

My dream had fallen before it could even fly and that’s okay because you know why?

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It could always be pushed into a smooth drive and sometimes that’s all you ever need.

 

-Toto

Introducing “OBJECT TALES”!

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Today’s the day that I’m proud to announce a brand new series named “OBJECT TALES” coming on board Tinkerer of Words!

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Every object’s got a story, an attachment of our memory or an experience forever saved within it. “OBJECT TALES” tries to jump into discovering these special moments stuck to random things around us.

Come along to see objects not for what they are but for the tales they live with.


-Toto